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In June, 1973, the
Khao Suan Luang community celebrated Upasika Kee's 72nd
birthday -- an important milestone in a culture that
calculates years in twelve-year cycles -- by printing a
collection of excerpts from her Dhamma talks. The
following selections are drawn from that collection.
§ The first requirement
when you come to practice is that you need to be the
sort of person who loves the truth -- and you need to
possess endurance to do what's true. Only then will your
practice get anywhere. Otherwise, it all turns into
failure and you go back to being a slave to your
defilements and cravings just as before.
§ When you don't
contemplate yourself, how much suffering do you cause
for yourself? And how much do you cause for others?
These are things we should contemplate as much as we
can. If we don't, we keep trying to get, get, get. We
don't try to let go, to put things aside, to make any
sacrifices at all. We just keep trying to get, for the
more we get, the more we want.
§ If you're greedy and
stingy, then even if you have loads of money the Buddha
says you're poor: poor in noble treasures, poor in the
treasures of the mind. Even if you have lots of external
wealth, when you die it all goes to other people, it
turns into common property, but you yourself are left
poor in virtue, poor in the Dhamma.
§ The mind without its
own home -- a mind without the Dhamma as its home -- has
to live with the defilements. This defilement arises and
the mind goes running after it. As soon as it
disappears, that one arises over there, and the mind
goes running after that. Because the mind has no
dwelling of its own, it has to keep running wild all
over the place.
§ Practicing to put an
end to defilement and suffering is a high level of
practice, so you first have to clear the ground and put
it in good order. Don't think that you can practice
without any preparation... If you live for your
appetites, all you can think of is getting things for
the sake of your appetites. If you don't develop a sense
of contentment or a sense of shame on the beginning
level, it'll be hard to practice the higher levels.
§ The important part of
the practice lies in contemplating. If you don't
contemplate, discernment won't arise. The Buddha taught
us to contemplate and test things to the point where we
can clearly know for ourselves. Only then will we have a
proper refuge. He never taught us to take refuge in
things we ourselves can't see or do.
§ If you truly want to
gain release from suffering, you have to practice truly,
you have to make a true effort. You have to let go,
starting with outward things and working inward. You
have to free yourself from the delusion that falls for
delicious allures of every kind.
The important point in
letting go is to see the drawbacks of what you're
letting go. Only then can you let it go once and for
all. If you don't see its drawbacks, you'll still be
attached and will miss having it around.
§ If you're going to let
go of anything, you first have to see its drawbacks. If
you just tell yourself to let go, let go, the mind won't
easily obey. You really have to see the drawbacks of the
thing you're holding onto, and then the mind will let
go, of its own accord. It's like grabbing hold of fire:
When you feel the heat, you let go of your own accord
and will never dare grasp it again.
§ It's hard to see the
drawbacks of sensual passion, but even harder to see the
drawbacks of more subtle things, like your sense of
self.
§ On the beginning level
of the practice you have to learn how to control
yourself in the area of your words and deeds -- in other
words, on the level of virtue -- so that you can keep
your words and deeds at normalcy, calm and restrained.
In this way, the mind won't follow the power of the
crude defilements. When violent urges arise, you stop
them first with your powers of endurance. After you've
been able to endure for a while, your insight will gain
the strength it needs to develop a sense of right and
wrong, and in this way you'll see the worth of
endurance, that it really is a good thing.
§ When you do good, let
it be good in line with nature. Don't latch onto the
thought that you're good. If you get attached to
the idea that you're good, it will give rise to lots of
other attachments.
§ When a mind without
pride or conceit gets a scolding, it shrinks back like a
cow hit by a stick. Your sense of self will disappear
right before your eyes. A good cow, even it sees only
the shadow of the whip or the stick, stays still and
composed, ready to do quickly what it's told. A
meditator who can reduce her pride and conceit is sure
to make progress and will have nothing heavy to weigh
down her mind. The mind will be still and empty -- free
from any attachment to me or mine. This is
how the mind grows empty.
§ If you're the sort of
person who's open and honest, you'll find your window
for disbanding suffering and defilement right where
you're honest with yourself, right where you come to
your senses. You don't have to go explaining high level
Dhamma to anyone. All you need is the ordinary level of
being honest with yourself about the sufferings and
drawbacks of your actions, so that you can put a stop to
them, so that you develop a sense of wariness, a sense
of shame. That's much better than talking about
high-level Dhamma but then being heedless, complacent,
and shameless.
§ When you look back to
the past, you see that it's all an affair of your own
heedlessness. Even though you knew the Buddha's
teachings and were able to explain them correctly, still
the heart and mind were in a state of heedlessness.
Actually, when people know a lot of Dhamma and can show
off a lot of their knowledge, they can be more heedless
than people who know only a little. Those who've never
read Dhamma books tend to be more heedful, for they're
more modest and know that they need to read their own
minds all the time. Those who've read a lot of books or
heard a lot of talks tend to get complacent. And in this
way they become heedless and disrespectful of the
Dhamma.
§ We have to figure out
how to use our own mindfulness and discernment to look
inwardly at all times, for no one else can know these
things or see these things for us. We have to know for
ourselves.
§ When things are weak
and watery, they flow away. When they're solid they
don't flow. When the mind is weak and devoid of
strength, it's always ready to flow away like water. But
when the mind is endowed with mindfulness and
discernment, when it's solid and true in its effort, it
can withstand the flow of the defilements.
§ When you first start
meditating, it's like catching a monkey and tying it to
a leash. When it's first tied down, it'll struggle with
all its might to get away. In the same way, when the
mind is first tied down to its meditation object, it
doesn't like it. It'll struggle more than it normally
would, which makes us feel weak and discouraged. So in
this first stage we simply have to use our endurance to
resist the mind's tendency to stray off in search of
other objects. Over time it will gradually grow tame.
§ You want the mind to
be quiet but it won't be quiet. So what do you have to
do, what do you have to focus on, what do you have to
know so that you can see how the arising and passing
away of fabrication occur? Try to look carefully and
you're sure to know for yourself, for it's not anything
hidden or mysterious. It's something whose basic
principles you can catch sight of yourself.
§ What can we do so that
the mind doesn't get distracted with its preoccupations
or its nonsensical mental fabrications? We have to give
the mind something to focus its awareness on, for if its
awareness isn't focused on one thing, it wanders around
to know other things, other matters, aside from itself.
This is why there's the practice of focusing our
awareness on the body, or on the breath, making the
breath the post to which we tie our monkey -- the mind.
In other words, we use mindfulness to keep the mind
focused on the breath. This is the first step in the
practice.
Training the mind to
stay focused on the breath is something we have to do
continuously, with each in-and-out breath, in every
posture -- sitting, standing, walking, lying down. No
matter what you're doing, stay focused on the breath. If
you want, you can simply stay focused on nothing more
than the sensation of the breath, without determining
whether it's long or short. Keep breathing normally.
Don't force the breath or hold the breath or sit with
your body too tense. Sit straight and face comfortably
straight ahead. If you're going to turn to the left,
make sure to be focused on the breath as you turn. If
you turn to the right, stay focused on the breath as you
turn.
Whatever posture you use
is up to you, but stay focused on the breath
continuously. If your attention lapses, bring it back to
knowing the breath again. Whatever you're doing at any
time, watch the breath with every in-and-out breath and
you'll be developing mindfulness and alertness --
full-body self-awareness -- at the same time you're
being aware of the breath.
When you walk, you don't
have to focus on the steps of the feet. Focus on the
breath and let the feet do the stepping on their own.
Let each part of the body perform its function on its
own. All you have to do is stay focused on the breath
and you'll have full-body awareness.
Whether the eye is
looking at sights or the ear is listening to sounds,
stay focused on the breath. When you look at a sight,
make sure that knowing the breath underlies the looking.
When you listen to a sound, make sure that knowing the
breath underlies the listening. The breath is a means
for making the mind quiet, so you first have to train
yourself with it. Don't be in a hurry to get higher
results. Train the mind to stay under the control of
mindfulness continuously for days on end -- to the point
where the mind can't let its attention lapse. It will
come to stay more and more with the breath, focused on
knowing the breath continuously, and then other things
will stop on their own: Thinking stops, speaking stops.
Whatever tasks you have to do, you can still do them
while at the same time keeping track of the breath each
and every moment. If there are any lapses, you come back
to knowing the breath again. There's nothing else you
have to think about. Be aware of the breath at the same
time you're aware of the normalcy of the mind.
§ When the mind can
maintain its stance in normalcy, you can observe the
breath and see that it's at normalcy, too. When their
normalcy is in balance, you focus down on knowing that
the breath is simply a natural phenomenon -- the wind
property. The body as a whole is composed of the four
properties: earth, water, fire, and wind. So here we're
focused on the wind property. The wind property is a
natural phenomenon, not us or ours. The mind is then at
normalcy, not thinking or fabricating anything to stir
things up. It, too, is a natural phenomenon, pure and
simple. If it's not fabricated into anything else, if
it's not burned by defilements, it can stay still and at
normalcy.
When you stay focused on
the breath in every posture, it's a means of blocking
the mind from traipsing around with its thoughts and
labels. You have to be intent on training the mind to
stay with the breath with every posture: That's how
you'll come to know what the mind is like when it has
mindfulness of breathing as its dwelling place.
§ Focusing on the breath
helps the mind grow quiet more than any other method --
and it's not at all tiring. Simply breathe comfortably.
If you let the breath come in and out strongly, it helps
the breath energy and blood flow throughout the body. If
you breathe deeply so that the stomach muscles relax, it
helps to prevent constipation.
When you train with the
breath, it exercises both the body and the mind, and in
this way everything calms down in a natural way more
easily than if we try to calm things down with force or
threats. No matter how much you threaten the mind, it
won't surrender. It'll run all over the place. So
instead we train it to fall in line with nature -- for
after all, the breath is an aspect of nature. Whether
you're aware of it or not, the breath breathes in line
with its nature. Only when we focus on it are we aware
of it. The body is also an aspect of nature. The mind is
an aspect of nature. When they're trained in an
appropriate way, there aren't a lot of problems that you
have to solve. The flow of blood and breath energy in
the body improves the state of your nerves. If you train
your mindfulness and alertness to be aware of the whole
body at the same time you're aware of the breath, the
breath will flow effortlessly.
If you sit for long
periods of time, this practice will help keep the blood
and breath energy flowing naturally. You don't have to
fight the breath or hold it in. When you place your feet
and hands in the meditation posture, don't tense them
up. If you relax them so that the blood and breath
energy flow easily, it will be very helpful.
Focusing on mindfulness
of the breath is appropriate in every way -- appropriate
for the body, appropriate for the mind. Before his
awakening, when he was still a bodhisattva, the Buddha
used mindfulness of breathing more than any other
practice as the dwelling place for his mind. So when you
practice it, you too will have mindfulness of breathing
as the dwelling place for your mind. That way the mind
won't wander around fabricating thoughts and getting
embroiled. You have to get it to settle down and be
still. As soon as anything springs up, focus on the
breath. If you try to focus directly on the mind right
from the start, it might be too difficult to manage if
you're not familiar with it.
If you want to focus
directly on the mind, that's fine, too, but you have to
be aware of it with every in-and-out breath. Make your
awareness continuous for long periods of time.
§ Work at this in every
posture and see what results arise. In the beginning you
have to put together the causes -- in other words, you
have to make an effort to look and know correctly.
As for the letting go, that comes afterwards.
§ The Buddha compared
the training of the mind to holding a bird in your hand.
The mind is like a tiny bird, and the question is how to
hold the bird so that it doesn't fly away. If you hold
it too tightly, it will die in your hand. If you hold it
too loosely, the tiny bird will slip out through your
fingers. So how are you going to hold it so that it
doesn't die and doesn't get away? The same holds true
with our training of the mind in a way that's not too
tense and not too lax but always just right.
There are many things
you have to know in training the mind, and you have to
look after them correctly. On the physical side, you
have to change postures in a way that's balanced and
just right so that the mind can stay at normalcy, so
that it can stay at a natural level of stillness or
emptiness continuously.
Physical exercise is
also necessary. Even yogis who practice high levels of
concentration have to exercise the body by stretching
and bending it in various postures. We don't have to go
to extremes like them, but we can exercise enough so
that the mind can maintain its stillness naturally in a
way that allows it to contemplate physical and mental
phenomena to see them as inconstant, stressful, and
not-self...
If you force the mind
too much, it dies just like the bird held too tightly.
In other words, it grows deadened, insensitive, and will
simply stay frozen in stillness without contemplating to
see what inconstancy, stress, and not-selfness are like.
Our practice is to make
the mind still enough so that it can contemplate
inconstancy, stress, and not-selfness. This is the point
for which we train and contemplate, and that makes it
easy to train. As for changing postures or working and
getting exercise, we do these things with an empty mind.
When you're practicing
in total seclusion, you should get some physical
exercise. If you simply sit and lie down, the flow of
blood and breath energy in the body will get abnormal.
§ The fourth tetrad in
the instructions for keeping the breath in mind begins
with keeping track of inconstancy with every in-and-out
breath. The main obstacle that makes us unable to
maintain this kind of awareness for long or for
continuous periods of time is the fact that we don't
maintain our awareness with every in-and-out breath.
When things grow empty, we just let the mind grow quiet,
without focusing, without contemplating, so everything
drifts or grows blurry. Or some sort of fabrication
arises easily so that we can't focus on the empty mind.
So when any crude
fabrication arises, you have to block it by focusing on
the breath. Use the breath to snuff it out. Whether the
fabrication is a tiny or a strong sensation, catch hold
of the breath as your first step in protecting yourself.
The more often you do this, the more it turns into a
normal habit -- and the more useful it will be.
Simply staying with the
breath can help prevent unskillful thinking -- in other
words, it can keep the mind from fabricating unskillful
thoughts. That way, craving for sights, sounds, smells,
tastes, tactile sensations can't take shape. Whatever
you're aware of, quickly focus on the breath, and
whatever it is, it will simply stop and disband.
§ When the mind is very
refined and very still, if you don't maintain your
focus, your still awareness can blur or grow distracted.
So you have to keep your mindfulness in focus. Breathe
deeply and heavily as a way of waking the mind up. Don't
let it grow quiet in an unfocused way.
You have to focus on
seeing the condition of emptiness within the mind that's
a primal part of its nature. If you can do this, there's
not much else to the practice. Simply keep the mind
under the control of mindfulness and the breath. In
other words, focus on watching it, knowing it. Even if
there's some thinking that helps in your knowing,
keep it short. Don't let it grow long. Whatever the
reflection or the contemplation, keep it short. Don't
let it grow long. If it's long, it will turn into
distraction.
Use the breath as a
means of cutting it off. When your thinking starts
getting long, make it stop. Keep it as short as
possible. Make it stop as short as possible. Keep your
still self-awareness as clear and bright as possible,
seeing that it doesn't have any self.
§ The mind that
maintains itself in a state of normalcy is like a white
cloth or a white sheet of paper. You have to keep
focused on keeping watch over it to see, when there's
any sensory contact, how the mind wavers in reaction,
how it labels things as "good" or "bad" or "self." This
is something you have to learn how to observe on a
refined level.
§ Once the mind is quiet
and empty, your awareness really gets sharper. "Sharp"
here means that it clearly sees the actual facts because
it focuses its gaze until it sees clearly. If you're
looking at something and don't yet see clearly, don't go
looking anywhere else. Keep looking right there until
you know.
What does this knowing
know? It knows arising. Remaining. Passing away. And it
doesn't cling. To know in this way you have to keep
abreast of fabrication of every sort, whether it
fabricates good or bad or neither good nor bad.
If you're not yet
capable of contemplating the mind, then contemplate the
body to see how it's composed of the four elements:
earth, water, wind, and fire. You have to keep eating
and excreting, adding elements and excreting them all
the time. Even just the affairs of the body -- this
walking corpse -- are already a burden. When it's hot
you have to give it a shower; when it's cold you have to
wrap it up in blankets; when it's sick you have to give
it medicine; when it's hungry you have to give it food.
You have to look after it in just the right way;
otherwise it causes all sorts of problems.
They say that the mind
is the master, and the body the servant. But if craving
becomes the mind's master, then the body will have two
masters. Just think of how many conflicts that can
cause! The mind is in bad straits and so is the body.
§ The physical body on
its own is already painful and stressful. If we fasten
onto it, that makes it even more painful and stressful.
So contemplate the body carefully to see that there's
only the stress of conditions, the stress of the
aggregates, but that there's no one to whom the stress
belongs -- and there's no defilement burning the heart.
§ Give up your
fascination with worthless things, with the good and bad
things of the past. Sweep them up and toss them out.
Make the mind free of clutter. And once it's free of
clutter, don't go gathering up things to clutter it up
again. For example, your mind is empty at the moment.
Look at it to see how things take shape and arise; look
at how they disappear. Look at genuine nature right
here. Look at the nature of how the mind receives its
objects, or how it receives contact. If you see
correctly in line with the truth, you'll see that these
things are all empty. There's nothing true or lasting
about them at all. Simply look in a way that doesn't
apply labels. When the eye sees sights or the ear hears
sounds, look at these things simply as natural events.
As for the mind, let it stay still, free from any
tendency to get involved by labeling things as good or
bad. That way desire won't arise to disturb the mind.
Ask yourself: If you
fall for these things, and suffering follows as a
result, what do you get out of it? You'll see that you
don't get anything at all. It's all empty. What you
do get is the suffering that keeps the heart
flustered. So whatever you look at, look to see its
inconstancy thoroughly, inside and out. Just that will
be enough to keep you from having to cling to anything.
§ When you're aware of
sensory contact, you don't want your awareness to stop
just at the point where the eye sees a sight or the ear
hears a sound. You have to know deeply into the
eye-consciousness that takes note of the sight. Then
focus on the sight to see its changes, its decay and
disbanding. When there's the sensation of a sight, you
have to look to see whether the sight changes.
§ If you understand how
to look, you can see the changes in physical and mental
phenomena of all kinds. Physical phenomena you can see
with your eyes. For example, a flower that's still fresh
contains change and decay there in its freshness. If you
see its decay only when it's withered and brown, your
contemplation is still crude, still far from the truth.
Nothing that's
fabricated is stable or steady, but we make up our own
suppositions about these things. Things change in the
direction of development and in the direction of decay.
We see these as two separate processes, but actually
both of them are decay.
§ Whenever there's
sensory contact, keep your focus turned inward on the
mind continuously. Keep it still and at normalcy. As for
the contact, simply know it as contact, but keep your
awareness of the mind as continuous as possible until
your awareness all gathers together. Let it gather into
an awareness pure and simple. If this awareness pure and
simple can maintain its stance continuously, it will
become a means of reading and deciphering everything
within. You don't have to pay attention to the
sensations of arising and passing away. Focus instead on
the awareness pure and simple -- in other words, the
awareness right at the mind or at the property of
consciousness pure and simple. Even if you're aware of
physical matters, keep your awareness pure and simple.
You have to be observant
when the mind has firmly established mindfulness and
your awareness gathers so that you're aware of the
property of consciousness, pure and simple, without any
fabrication at all -- an awareness pure and simple right
at itself. Take that as your foundation.
In the beginning we
focus on the breath to keep the mind from wandering off.
When you focus on the breath as it grows more and more
refined you get to the point where you don't have to
focus on the breath any more. You focus continually
right at the mind. You focus right on the mind pure and
simple, without any fabrications, without any labels.
Whatever arises, know it no further than that and keep
your mindfulness continuous.
§ When the mind lies
under the control of mindfulness, without fabricating
thoughts or getting distracted, it will be quiet and
awake within. When you focus directly on the mind, it
will stop and grow still naturally. You'll see that the
mind is just an aspect of nature, not your "self" or
anything of the sort. When you see clearly that it's
just an aspect of nature, that will destroy any
attachment to it as "you" or "yours."
Whether you're aware of
form or feeling, simply let them be aspects of nature --
all of them. The mind won't be put to difficulties,
won't get stirred up with thoughts and fabrications. Let
it stop and grow still simply by keeping abreast of
itself with every moment.
§ To restrain the mind
makes the sensations of sensory contact stop in their
tracks. In other words, simply being acquainted with the
mind when mindfulness is focused on being aware of the
mind allows sensory contacts to pass away naturally
right in the present. This is why people who are
careless, who don't develop restraint through
mindfulness, fall easily under the power of the
defilements.
Restraint through
mindfulness is the first step -- in other words, the
step where you maintain restraint by being mindful. When
your mindfulness becomes continuous to the point where
it becomes clear knowing, that's called restraint
through knowledge. Try to maintain this state of clear
knowing within.
§ Restraint of the
senses is for the purpose of seeing the movements of the
mind -- to see how the sensation of contact at the
eye, ear, nose, tongue, body, or mind turns into other
sensations.
§ Your study of the
Dhamma has to be a study inside, not a study of written
words or spoken words. It has to be a study of the mind
pure and simple so that it will know its own features
and characteristics while it maintains its normalcy or
maintains itself in emptiness, an emptiness that doesn't
latch onto anything.
If you look at it again
and again with every moment, it will develop into a
clear awareness of the characteristics of an aspect of
nature fabricated from causes and conditions, simply as
its own nature, pure and simple. Or there may be an
awareness of another side of nature -- even though the
awareness may not be clear -- of an aspect of nature
free from fabrication. Here I'm referring to the mind
that's empty or quiet on its own, which can serve as a
standard for comparison. The aspect of the mind
fabricated by conditions is simply nature. Don't enter
into it to latch onto it. As for the aspect that's not
fabricated, that's simply empty in and of itself: This
too shouldn't be latched onto.
So when the mind is
embroiled, if you latch onto the idea that "My mind is
embroiled"; or if, when the mind is empty, you latch
onto the idea that "My mind is empty": Both of these are
equal, in that no matter what you latch onto, you have
to suffer. So no matter how things change, if you
correctly know the truth of the Buddha's sabbe dhamma
anatta -- All phenomena are not-self -- you'll
simply be able to let go.
§ Stopping to look,
stopping to know your own mind is better than straying
out to know things outside, for when you stop to look,
stop to know, you'll see inconstancy, stress, and
not-selfness in a way that doesn't require words. This
will be a knowing that's totally silent and still
within. The kind of insight that uses the words
"inconstant," "stressful," and "not-self" is imitation
knowing, not the real thing. Genuine knowing sees
the change happening with every moment right before your
eyes, right here and now. You actually see whatever
arises and how it passes away. And it's always there for
you to see right now. There's nothing difficult about it
at all. So if you know how to stop to look, stop to know
your own mind, you'll become acquainted with the Dhamma
in a correct way...
If you look correctly,
seeing all the way through, you'll see how change
involves arising, remaining, and passing away with every
moment. You'll see how change inherently involves
stress. But you have to see all the way in, in a
profound way. It's not just a matter of repeating to
yourself that these things are inconstant, stressful,
and not-self.
You really have to look
in order to see how change is inherently stressful. You
don't have to call it "stressful" in your mind, but you
have to look until you see this truth clearly right in
the stress itself. Once you've seen that inconstancy is
stressful, you'll see the non-selfness inherently there
in the same place.
§ If you stay focused on
disbanding this, that, and the other thing, you've
fallen for the deceits of inconstancy.
§ When you look at
inconstancy, or arising and passing away, with true
mindfulness and discernment, there will have to be a
sense of dismay, disenchantment, and dispassion... If
you know but are simply indifferent, that's called not
knowing. You've simply fooled yourself into thinking you
know when you really haven't. Genuine knowing, bright
and clear to the heart, is something else entirely --
not at all the indifferent knowing that counts as
delusion.
§ When you really know,
there has to be a sense of dismay, a sense of urgency in
getting everything out, giving everything back, a sense
of urgency in seeing how things are not at all worthy of
attachment. That's the kind of knowing you have to
develop. If you haven't yet developed it, you need to
contemplate things over and over again, whether you're
sitting, standing, walking, lying down, eating,
excreting, whatever. You need to be absorbed in
contemplating these things as much as you can. When you
can do that, you'll enter into the Dhamma. If the mind
is still far away and distracted, if it's still
concerned with this, that, and the other thing, it'll
keep retreating further and further away until it falls
slave to craving and defilement as before.
§ The chant for
contemplating the four requisites is something very
useful and beneficial. You have to keep training
yourself not to get carried away in your consumption of
the requisites. The mindfulness that arises from this
contemplation will then be full of discernment. Wherever
there's mindfulness, there has to be alertness and
self-awareness -- which are the same thing as
discernment.
§ Every aspect of the
training that aims at making you contented with what you
have helps keep the mind more empty than not. Once you
see the value of these practices, you should practice
letting go of your desires. If you simply follow your
desires, then if you get what you desire you're happy.
If you don't, you get all hot and bothered. So
contemplate desire to see if it's stressful -- to see
how it's both stress and the cause of stress all in one.
§ Training the mind is
refined work. Even when knowledge arises, if you decide
on your own that it has to be right for sure, you've
failed the test. No matter what the knowledge: If it can
waver, it's fake knowledge, deceptive knowledge, not
absolute knowledge.
§ When you latch onto
your knowledge as correct, that gives rise to wrong view
in that very moment. So you have to keep stopping
to look and to know all along the way until you see how
your knowing turns into not-knowing. This is because
right knowing and wrong knowing are inherently
intertwined. It's not the case that true knowing will
stay as nothing but true knowing. You have to find the
angle from which you can see how and where wrong knowing
and wrong views will spring up.
§ When pride and conceit
arise, you have to make them turn around and contemplate
themselves, to see that there's no "self" to them -- and
so when that's the case, what do they get out of
bragging? Exactly where is their self? When you look
into this, you find that you're at a loss as to what to
say. And that in and of itself helps to put an end to
your bragging.
When you find the source
that gives rise to "I know, I'm right, I'm good," that's
the voice you have to make life difficult for. If you
make life difficult for other voices you've missed the
mark, for they're all just its followers.
The voice that says it's
good or right: Use that voice to take itself apart. You
don't have to use any other voice. Make it turn around
and dig up its own source.
§ If you don't know how
to look for your own faults, you're not practicing the
Dhamma. To focus on your own faults goes against the
flow. The basic principle in contemplation is that you
can't put yourself first. You have to put the Dhamma
first.
The more you know, the
more modest you become: That's the nature of the Dhamma.
Whoever says you're stupid, let them go ahead and say
it, but make sure you stay full of the Dhamma inside.
Maintain the Dhamma at all costs, in the same way that
people carefully protect a cabinet in which the Canon is
placed. Focus on gathering the Dhamma into one point:
keeping the mind in a proper stance without fastening
onto anything. And as to how you protect it, and how it
requires care and circumspection: That's something you
have to discover for yourself.
§ Right views and right
awareness see everything as Dhamma. In other words, they
see all the events of fabrication in line with the three
characteristics.
§ We have to contemplate
the genuine essence of the Dhamma so that when we look
outward we can see it all as Dhamma, without labeling it
as good or bad. Try using your eyes to look in a way
that doesn't involve labeling. See everything as nature
following in line with causes and conditions. Or see
everything as Dhamma pure and simple. Then see if the
mind feels open, empty, and light.
The Dhamma that you can
study in books is not the genuine essence of the Dhamma.
To see the genuine essence of the Dhamma you have to
strip away all conventional formulations, leaving nature
pure and simple, free of any "being" or "having."
§ Contemplation that
uses thoughts is still external, not internal. Internal
contemplation has to be a focused watching that's
motionless and still. It's a contemplation that's
composed of focused watching, not something that's
thought out.
§ Your contemplation has
to go through many layers, not one. The first layer is
to watch on the level of perceptions and labels. Next
you watch thoughts. And then next you watch awareness.
If you're watching
labels, see them simply as labels: the act of
recognition, the awareness that you've recognized
something, and then the label disbands.
If you're watching
thoughts, see how a thought arises, what it's about, and
then how it disbands. Then a new thought arises, and it
too disbands. This is the second level.
Then you watch
awareness, the awareness of the mind pure and simple, a
sensation that arises right at the mind. Watch that
sensation right at the mind, and see how it disbands in
just the same way.
§ We have to use
mindfulness and discernment, which are like extremely
sharp shovels and hoes, to dig down to our sense of
self. Then we can turn it over and look at it from all
sides to see exactly where it's our self. Try
contemplating the form, feeling, perception,
fabrication, or consciousness that you hold onto so
tightly, to see exactly where it's constant,
pleasurable, or self.
§ We haven't
contemplated the pile of five aggregates -- which is
changing before our very eyes -- in order to see
correctly its natural conditions as they appear. That's
why we've fallen for the allure of attachment and
clinging that give rise to the sense of self that
functions as the "taker," the "consumer," the "receiver
of results." And then we have to suffer by entering into
the consuming and receiving -- all without realizing it.
In fact, we want more. For instance, when we receive the
results of a mind that's quiet and at ease, we want them
to stay that way. When they change, we get all stirred
up. But if we understand the principles of inconstancy,
stress, and not-self, we can let go. We don't have to
hold on tight. Right here is the path to release.
§ You've come here to
practice specifically for the sake of putting an end to
your sufferings and defilements, so you have to forget
everything else. You don't have to concern yourself with
lots of things. Simply focus your attention on your own
body and mind, and everything will grow empty on its
own. You don't have to go desiring the emptiness. Don't
get yourself embroiled because of desire.
§ Instead of letting go
of the things you should let go, you feed them more fuel
so that they flare up even stronger. Instead of dealing
with the things you should abstain from or give up or
weaken or destroy, you don't deal with them at all. And
then you keep looking for new meditation techniques!
Your defilements are arising right in your face, right
in the mind, with every moment, and yet you don't deal
with them. All you do is look for things outside to
delude yourself.
§ The practice of the
Dhamma is a way of curing the illnesses inside the heart
and mind, so we have to devote ourselves to the practice
to the utmost of our abilities. We have to practice
heedfully so that defilement, craving, and clinging will
grow lighter. We have to focus and contemplate
continuously at all times so as to destroy our
attachment to self. This is the most important work in
our lives: contemplating physical and mental phenomena
to see their inconstancy, stress, and not-selfness. And
we have to keep at this work all throughout life as long
as the defilements haven't yet ended. We keep looking,
contemplating, letting go, continually.
§ The hot defilements
are easy to see, but the cool, damp defilements -- such
as love, desire, affection -- that burn the mind with a
cool, damp fire, as poisonous as acid: Those are hard to
see. You have to examine yourself so that you know them
for what they are. Otherwise you'll keep accumulating
the fungus that causes damp rot within you.
§ The more your
attention goes leaking outside, the more stupid you
become. The more you focus inside, the sharper you
become -- and the more you'll be able to disband your
sufferings and defilements. The more you focus outside,
the more you pick up the fungus that causes damp rot,
and the more you become a garbage pit.
§ When we see
defilements showing themselves in other people, we can
see how ugly they are by seeing how ugly those people
act. But when they show up in ourselves, we see them as
good and right. This is where we're inconsistent, seeing
our own defilements as our close friends -- in line with
the old saying, "Seeing a bladed discus as a petaled
lotus." Is that the way we are? This is something really
worth looking into.
§ If you know how to
focus on the arising of defilement -- whether it's greed
or anger -- even it arises only a little bit, you should
focus on staring it down to the point where you can
snuff it out. If you don't make use of this approach,
you won't have the strength to fight it off. If you feed
it fuel until it starts fabricating all out of bounds,
it will flare up as a huge fire and you won't be able to
put it out. If you want to put it out, you have to snuff
it out in the very first stage where it appears as a
slight sense of liking or disliking.
You have to keep
contemplating to see, when the mind is empty like it is
now, how these feelings arise. You have to contemplate
to see how they disappear and how you can make sure that
nothing else will arise to fabricate them any further.
Your awareness of the stem-point of fabrication is a
means of snuffing out suffering right from the start --
a means that's correct and uses the least strength.
§ Snuffing out blatant
greed and anger isn't easy, for their roots are still in
place; they're still nourished by fertilizer. That's why
they have to keep flowering and bearing fruit. So if we
really want to take the approach that's quickest and
most correct, we have to focus down on destroying
delusion -- our lack of familiarity with the truth.
§ Focus right on the
issue of how defilements, when they arise, make the mind
murky, bothered, and hot. Then contemplate how to
disband them. When they disband, does the mind feel
cool? Keep looking right there.
The coolness here
doesn't come from our making it cool. It's cool in and
of itself, without our having to shower it with water.
It's the feeling-tone of the mind when it can let go of
something. It's cool in and of itself.
§ Contemplating yourself
repeatedly gives you a sense of the mind's higher nature
that can pull you up to release. It's a means of
dispersing the side of the mind that used to fasten onto
things so that it grows weaker and weaker with regard to
everything of every sort. You do this through the power
of mindfulness and discernment, not through the power of
defilement, craving, or clinging.
§ When the mind is
struggling to get something, just watch it at first.
Only when it stops struggling should you deal with the
issue in line with what's appropriate. In this way,
desire will grow weaker, and your actions will lie under
the power of mindfulness and discernment.
§ If we don't experiment
with using the power of mindfulness and discernment to
win out over defilement, we'll stay ignorant as always.
We'll just keep on eating and living at our own
convenience, but when anything strikes we'll start
spinning away, grasping after all kinds of things. This
is because we haven't worked at developing endurance and
tolerance. We haven't trained ourselves to endure
looking at pain and suffering, to endure focusing on
pain and suffering, to see how heavy they are, to see
whose pains and suffering they are. Only if we
endure looking at the pain and suffering, endure
focusing on the pain and suffering, until the pain and
suffering dissipate: That's when we'll gain great
benefits from our practice.
§ We have to train
ourselves a great deal in contemplating pain, focusing
on pain, to the point where we can let go of pain and
the mind doesn't fall in line with pain. The pain then
doesn't go any further than the body. As for pleasure,
you don't have to latch onto it. You don't have to be
pleased by pleasure. You have to see pleasure and pain
as equal. They're equally inconstant and stressful, as
they've been from the very beginning.
§ No matter how pain
arises while sitting in meditation, you have to endure
looking at it until you can let it go. See it as the
stress of physical and mental phenomena, or the stress
of the aggregates. As for the mind, keep it in a state
of normalcy, without struggling. In this way, craving
won't arise. If you let craving arise first, you'll have
a hard time letting it go. It'll thrash all around.
Simply be involved in
watching the pain. When it arises, let it arise. If it's
strong, simply know that it's strong. Don't let craving
arise. Let there just be the feeling in and of itself.
Notice how it takes shape, how it changes, and simply
watch it that way. Keep any craving at bay.
Or if you want, you can
turn and look at the mind pure and simple. If it's in a
turmoil, you can know that craving has already arisen.
If it's at normalcy, watch over it carefully, for it can
pick up moods very quickly. If your attention lapses,
it'll go flowing along with a mood.
§ When you go chasing
after good and bad, and latch onto your sense of self,
you create a huge fuss. But when you really know
clearly, you sort out these problems so that they fade
away. When you really examine all the evidence, you'll
see that there's no good or bad arising. It all
disbands. But then new thought fabrications arise and
pass away, arise and pass away. They keep on flowing,
and they seem to involve many, many issues. But actually
there aren't many issues. There's only arising,
remaining, and passing away. It's because we're not
focused on knowing this that the issues come to seem
many. But no matter how many there are, there's just
this: arising, remaining, and passing away, one after
another, like the pattern of a current of water, where
the pattern isn't a thing at all.
If you look into the
pattern of the current of your thoughts, fabricating
good and bad, you'll find that there's nothing you can
latch onto as having any essence, for all these thoughts
disband and disappear. If you learn how to look
skillfully in this way, your mind will be empty more
than embroiled, for you see the truth that these things
all arise, remain, and pass away. The past has passed
away. The future hasn't yet come. Look simply at the
present arising and passing away right before your eyes
-- and don't latch on.
When you see arising,
remaining, and passing away, pure and simple, right in
the present moment and then can let go: Right there is
where you gain release.
§ There's an old saying:
A flagpole planted
in a swift-flowing stream:
Right there's the Buddha
whose Dhamma's supreme.
In a
swift-flowing stream refers to the present, where
there's fabrication, change, arising and passing away.
Right there's the Buddha whose Dhamma's supreme
means that clear knowing is found right there. Letting
go of attachment occurs right there.
Examine your mind to see
what kind of currents it's flowing after. Then stop to
look at them. Stop to be aware of them. Ultimately,
you'll see that there's actually nothing there, just
arising and passing away in emptiness, like a projected
image that flashes into being and disappears, empty of
any essence.
§ If your looking-inward
sees all the way through, you'll see that none of the
things of the world have any value at all, for the
highest value lies with the mind imbued with clear
knowing, bright and clean. Even if this knowing is only
momentary, it means that your practice isn't in vain.
You can take it as your guide to continue following
until you disband suffering and defilement without
trace.
§ The internal sense of
the mind will show itself of its own accord. Like a
diamond embedded in rock: When the rock is cut away, the
sparkle and shine of the diamond show themselves of
their own accord. In the same way, when the mind is
embedded in defilement, craving, and clinging, it's
totally dark, totally in the dark. There's no light or
brightness to it at all. But when our cutting tools --
mindfulness and discernment -- bring out its facets, the
mind will be bright on its own.
§ The Dhamma covers many
topics, but they're all gathered at the mind.
Defilements are a kind of dhamma, as are discernment and
the five aggregates. Everything's dhamma. Now, what we
want is the highest dhamma, the dhamma that's
unfabricated. We want to know what it's like, so where
does it lie? It lies right here in the mind. The mind
that isn't fabricated, that's empty of itself: That's
the genuine dhamma.
§ In contemplating the
phenomena of the present -- the way things arise,
remain, and disband -- you have to keep looking until
you see through to that which doesn't arise or disband.
When you fully comprehend arising, remaining, and
disbanding, you'll come face to face with emptiness.
§ Emptiness isn't empty
in the way you'd sit and say to yourself, "There's
nothing there at all." There are things there:
The eye sees sights, the ear hears sounds, and so on.
They're empty simply in that the mind doesn't enter in
to label them, to concoct anything out of them, to cling
to them, liking or disliking them, that's all. They're
empty in that the mind is free from attachment.
§ If you don't know how
to extinguish things, how to let go, you'll get stuck on
every level of the path. If you get stuck on the
delicious flavor of emptiness or stillness, that's
delusion's version of nibbana.
§ The practice requires
that you pass through a lot of things. If you gain new
knowledge and latch onto it, that will create an
obstacle along your way. It's like taking a journey: If
you run across something strange and new, and you're not
willing to continue along your way because you get
contented with where you already are, you end up setting
up house right there.
Your ability to continue
on the journey depends on an awareness that sees clearly
all the way through. But here your awareness isn't clear
all the way through, and yet you set up house right
here, thinking that nibbana lies right here at the
emptiness. That opinion is what blocks your way.
If you take that sense
of stillness and emptiness simply as a resting spot, it
holds little danger, for you still have the opportunity
to continue along your way.
The path that snuffs out
defilement has to focus on snuffing out the view that
latches onto knowledge and views.
You have to recognize
the stages of the path that you need as resting spots,
and to realize that you're holding onto them simply as
temporary dwellings. If you grip them tightly, you'll
get stuck there and will go no further.
§ If your awareness
focuses down like this again and again and again, the
mind will ultimately have to surrender. Its old habit of
wandering around to know this and that will gradually
calm down and grow still without your having to force
it, for it won't be able to withstand your constant
gaze. Every time you look at it, you'll see its
deceptiveness. You'll see that it's not worthy of
credence, not worthy of attachment, and so that
deceptiveness will have to shrink away.
It's like a person who
comes to flatter you. As soon as you focus your gaze on
him and realize what he's up to, he has to shrink away
in embarrassment.
To focus on the point
where your sense of self arises, your mindfulness and
discernment have to develop many approaches from many
angles, using tricks that you figure out on your own.
The basic trick is a
small thing: Look for the point where the sense of
self disbands on its own.
If your awareness
doesn't penetrate clearly into the disbanding of the
property of consciousness, there's no way you can know
how mental states arise and pass away. There's no way
you can know how they wander around to take on objects,
how they fall into the swirling currents of good and bad
thought-fabrication, or how they get all wound up in a
turmoil. So when you choose your focus, focus directly
on the disbanding of mental states. When they take on an
object, do they then disband? Keep looking until you can
see how they disband on their own. If you can't manage
this, focus first on the disbanding of physical and
mental phenomena. When you clearly see the disbanding of
physical and mental phenomena, you'll know for yourself
how the consciousness which knows that disbanding also
disbands on its own, each and every moment it knows
those things.
Knowing the disbanding
of consciousness is very useful. No matter how it
arises, consciousness always disbands on its own. That
way you won't latch onto the idea that it has a self of
any kind.
To know the disbanding
of consciousness pure and simple is to know the
disbanding of everything. It's like opening up the
entire world, or stripping off the entire world and
throwing it away.
When you can strip it
away, throw it off, and let it go, there's nothing but
emptiness, an emptiness that's bright and clear, with no
sense of the world at all. The words "world" and "five
aggregates" are simply conventions to help us see how
there's change.
§ To become acquainted
with the property of awareness pure and simple, you have
to observe the mind's movements in response to contact.
You have to know arising and passing away, and you have
to observe the awareness that accompanies the mind,
which lies deep within the mind or in the property of
consciousness. If it's not fabricated or labeled, it
will stay quiet. It will maintain its stance. If you
want to see how long it can maintain its stance, you
have to observe its movements in response to contact or
in response to the internal sensation of labeling. When
these things arise, can that awareness maintain its
stance? If it can't, it will get fabricated into
distraction. And by the time the matter calms down,
you'll be worn out.
If you can see into the
condition of awareness pure and simple, you'll know your
foundation -- your inner foundation. In the beginning,
you have to depend on mindfulness as your foundation for
focusing on in. Then you focus on looking to know the
condition of change, of arising and passing away. This
is focused looking, not simple looking.
Simple looking doesn't
lead to any knowledge. It's delusion. Focused looking to
the point of giving rise to clear knowing is, in and of
itself, a means of destroying delusion. On whatever
level you're free from fabrication, from mental labels,
or free from attachment, it's a means of clear knowing
within the mind or the property of consciousness.
§ For your awareness to
reach into the gathering point of the mind or of the
property of consciousness pure and simple, you have to
focus on the condition of change within the mind itself.
You do this to destroy the deep seeds of the property of
consciousness. These seeds, which lie continually in the
property of consciousness, are very refined.
These are the seeds of
sensual craving, craving for becoming, and craving for
non-becoming. Sensual craving is something fairly easy
to observe. The way it moves in to create desire for
sights, sounds, smells, tastes, tactile sensations is
something fairly easy to see. As for the more latent
seeds of craving for becoming -- the craving to be or
have a self or things belonging to a self -- these lie
deep. So we have to look deeply in if we want to destroy
them...
If you can see all the
way through to these seeds and can destroy them, that
will be your path to release from suffering. This
gathering point of the property of consciousness pure
and simple, or of the property of awareness pure and
simple, is thus something really worth looking into. If
you don't gather your awareness to look into this point,
you'll find it hard to destroy the seeds. Whatever seeds
you do destroy will be external seeds, such as those in
sensory pleasures. But the seeds that are latent
tendencies lying within the mind or the property of
consciousness have no intentions of their own. That's
why we rarely see all the way into them, why we rarely
know them, rarely see them. This is because we play
around with their children, their followers: sensory
pleasures. We don't focus on in to look inside to get
any perspective at all.
§ The unintentional
tendencies that lie deep your character: You can't
intentionally get rid of them at the drop of a hat. The
only way to get rid of them is to contemplate inwardly
step by step so that you know them clearly. You have
to reach the basic level of knowing that's unintentional
if you want to get rid of the other unintentional things
in the mind.
§ The property of
consciousness contains within it the sense of being or
having a self. It contains the seeds that give rise to
being and having in the same way that a
seed contains bark, branches, and leaves. If you focus
in to know the condition of the property of name and
form pure and simple, that in and of itself will destroy
the seeds for rebirth.
§ We have to contemplate
to see natural conditions of both sorts, starting with
the changing condition of such things as the aggregates,
penetrating through to the unchanging condition which is
the total disbanding of suffering...
The sort that changes
keeps changing its disguises without respite, deceiving
us into latching onto it as genuine and true. In
particular, our fascination with pleasurable feelings:
Even when we train the mind to be still, we're hoping
for the delicious flavor of the pleasurable feeling.
This is because we haven't contemplated the
deceptiveness of feelings of every sort.
Some arahants gain
awakening through becoming acquainted with feeling and
destroying the obsessions that lie latent in all three
kinds of feeling.
Obsession with
irritation lies latent in painful feeling. As soon as
pain arises, whether it's mental or physical pain,
irritation arises in the mind.
Obsession with passion
lies latent in pleasant feeling. We like pleasure of
every kind, wanting it to stay with us for a long time.
When a feeling of
equanimity -- neither pleasure nor pain -- arises, we
get absorbed in the equanimity because we don't know
that it's just a feeling that has to arise and pass away
in line with its conditions. This is why obsession with
ignorance lies latent in equanimous feeling.
How do we let go of
these obsessions? This is something to which we should
give a lot of attention, because feeling has a lot of
allure that can engender craving.
For example, when the
mind is still and empty and then changes so that it's no
longer still and empty, we want it to be still and empty
again. The more we want, the more it's not empty.
If we can disband the
desire for emptiness, that in and of itself will let the
mind will grow empty again. Desire is what gets the mind
embroiled in a turmoil; so desire is what we have to
disband.
We practice restraint of
the senses so as to disband desire, because the mind is
always desiring to see the sights, hear the sounds,
smell the aromas, taste the flavors, and touch the
tactile sensations surrounding it on all sides.
It's because we don't
know how desire is the cause of suffering that we
struggle to satisfy our desires -- and then all kinds of
suffering follow.
§ The word
sankhata-dhamma -- fabricated phenomena -- covers
conditions of nature that are marked by the three
characteristics. The things we have to study are
summarized in two words: sankhata dhamma and
asankhata dhamma. Both of these terms have a deep
and wide range of meaning, especially sankhata
dhammas, which are always inconstant, stressful, and
not-self. The conditions of sankhata dhamma
follow their own swirling currents without end. As for
asankhata dhamma -- the phenomenon that doesn't
change, isn't stressful, but is still not-self -- that's
something hard to know. But even this refined, subtle
condition is something that we shouldn't latch onto.
§ When the mind stops,
grows still, and is aware of itself, let it focus even
more deeply on itself, for its stopping-state is the
mental state that's concentrated or in equanimity:
still, neutral, neither pleased nor displeased. This is
a type of fabrication called aneñjabhisankhara --
imperturbable fabrication -- or if you want, you can
call it neutral fabrication. When you focus on it, see
it simply as an aspect of nature. Don't get sucked into
the stillness, the neutrality, or the equanimity. At the
same time, though, you do have to depend on the
equanimity to focus in on seeing things as aspects of
nature, pure and simple. This is a way of disbanding any
fabrication of liking or disliking, good or bad. For
this reason, we don't stop just at the equanimity. We
have to see all the way through it, that it's an aspect
of nature free of self.
§ When the fabricated
aspects of nature disband, the mind stays with its
awareness of equanimity. Then you focus on the
equanimity to be aware of it as an aspect of nature,
without using any labels or words. Simply focus on in to
watch it, to become acquainted with the aspect of nature
that lies further in, without labeling anything at all.
As you see into every
level of nature pure and simple, things get deeper and
more profound. You know and let go, know and let go,
know and let go -- empty!
Whatever appears, you
let go. The important principle in your gazing inward is
simply to let go.
You look, you see, and
you let go. Incline the mind to letting go. Look in
absolute stillness, with no inner conversation. Know and
let go. Mindfulness keeps knowing through letting go of
everything. The breath doesn't disappear. No matter how
still or empty the mind, you're aware with every breath.
If you don't know in this way, you'll soon lose focus
and get distracted, or a fabrication of some sort will
interfere so that you lose your foundation.
§ When the mind
fabricates unskillful thoughts -- thoughts of sensual
passion, thoughts of ill will, thoughts of harmfulness
-- these are all called demeritorious fabrications
(apuññabhisankhara).
When the mind gains a
sense of the drawbacks of sensual passion and develops a
sense of distrust, disgust, and distaste for sensual
passion, that's how you cleanse the mind of sensual
passion, so that it's not stuck on sensual passion, so
that it's stuck instead on disenchantment. When the mind
sees the drawbacks of ill will and thinks instead in
terms of good will and forgiveness, that's how you
destroy ill will. When you see the drawbacks of
harmfulness, you then think or act in ways that aren't
harmful. All of these things are called meritorious
fabrications (puññabhisankhara).
When the mind fabricates
these things, whether meritorious or demeritorious, it
puts itself into a turmoil. Skillful thoughts have to
keep thinking so as to do away with unskillful thoughts.
If you think too much, it can make you tired, both in
body and mind. When this happens, you have to focus on a
single preoccupation to bring the mind to concentration.
When you focus in
concentration, throwing away both meritorious and
demeritorious fabrications, and instead stay
continuously stopped in a single preoccupation, this
falls into the characteristics of imperturbable
fabrication (aneñjabhisankhara).
The sense of being
snugly still or equanimous for long periods of time, may
not fit into the definition of imperturbable
fabrications as jhana or the higher absorptions. It's
simply a type of immovability endowed with mindfulness
and discernment. The mind is aware of itself, focuses
its gaze right on itself, and knows itself continuously,
without fabricating thoughts of good or evil. This, too,
can be included under imperturbable fabrication.
For that reason we have
to find the aspect of the mind that can maintain its
stance so as to see further in, so that it's not stuck
on imperturbable fabrication. We have to penetrate to
the point where we can see clearly in terms of the
arising, remaining, and passing away, the inconstancy,
stress, and not-selfness that are gathered in here as
well.
§ You have to sharpen
this basic principle of knowing so that it's razor sharp
-- so that you can see the truth that nothing has any
true essence, that it's all illusory.
"Knowing" and "not
knowing" trade places so that they seem to be different,
but if you get stuck on this duality, you're stuck on
yourself.
If you're really going
to know, you have to know both sides: the side that
knows and the side that doesn't know, to see that
they're both inconstant in the same way, both deceitful
in the same way.
§ Your sense of physical
and mental phenomena is all fabrication. Mindfulness is
a fabrication. Discernment is a fabrication. Even the
still mind is a fabrication. When it's not still, it's a
fabrication. So look at fabrication deeply, precisely,
from all angles, inside and out.
Knowledge -- even the
observer, the knower -- is also fabrication. They're all
fabrication, whether they're right or wrong, good or
bad. So you have to acquaint yourself thoroughly with
fabrication. When you know fabrication thoroughly, in a
way that penetrates inwardly, it gives rise to a sense
of disenchantment. If you don't do this, you'll take
your pick of the good fabrications to hold onto, and
push the bad fabrications away.
§ We can recognize
fabrications in that they change and can disband. And
then we realize that we've been playing around with
these fake, imitation things all along.
Even clear knowing is a
fabrication. It changes in line with physical and mental
conditions. Mindfulness, discernment, and intuitive
knowing-and-seeing are all fabrications -- just that
they're good fabrications that we have to depend on for
the time being.
We have to understand
fabrications, understand how to use fabrications in a
correct way, and then simply let them go. We don't have
to keep holding onto them.
§ Knowing is a
fabrication. Not-knowing is a fabrication. When we
examine them internally we see that they both arise and
pass away. Even the truths that we know in this way
don't stay long. They have to turn into not-knowing.
From this we can see
that fabrications play all sorts of tricks on many, many
levels, and we get deluded into playing along with them.
When we can get to know
the tricks of fabrication of every sort on every level,
that will be really beneficial. We'll really know in
line with what the Buddha said: Sabbe sankhara
aniccati -- All fabrications are inconstant. This is
an important principle that will enable us to see
through to the stressfulness in every sort of
fabrication.
Even good fabrications,
like mindfulness and discernment, are stressful in and
of themselves because that have to keep changing.
They're like tools we use for the time being, but we
shouldn't stay fastened onto them.
§ Even though we have to
look after the foundation of our knowing, using
mindfulness and discernment to supervise the mind, we
should understand that the mind is a form of
fabrication. Mindfulness and discernment are
fabrications. If we know only on a superficial level and
go around talking about what we've been able to let go
on our level of practice, we haven't seen deeply into
fabrication. When this is the case, we still lie in the
swirling currents of fabrication.
Correct knowledge, which
is fabrication of a good sort, has to be trained to read
and decipher things within and without, including
itself, on many convoluted levels.
Once you've seen
inconstancy and stress, you have to see through to the
lack of self in fabrications of every sort.
§ You have to know that
fabrication is inconstant, stressful, and has no self to
itself. Keep looking at this point over and over again
until it becomes clear to the heart. Only then will you
develop a sense of disenchantment and dispassion. You
won't fasten onto good fabrications or push bad ones
away, for you've seen that they have the same price,
they're both equally changeable.
Even though we maintain
the stance of our knowing in looking over the mind to
make sure that it isn't fabricated even more from
outside conditions, still we don't stay fastened onto
the knowing, for it too has to change.
There come times when we
think we know the truth in this matter, but then at
later times or later moments even clearer knowing
arises. That enables us to know that what we thought was
true knowing actually wasn't. This knowing can change.
No matter how much higher it goes as it changes, you
have to remember that it's still fabrication; it can
still change no matter what level it is. Whether it's
crude or refined, you have to know it thoroughly.
Otherwise you'll stay fastened to it.
If you can look in a way
that sees all fabrications thoroughly -- good, bad,
right, wrong, the "knower," the "not-knower" -- simply
as the same sort of thing, your knowledge will gradually
rise above these things. But even though it's above,
it's still fabrication. It hasn't yet gained release
from fabrication. Even the path is a form of
fabrication. So when we develop the path, when we
develop the factor of right view, we have to see rightly
into this matter, seeing clearly into fabrication of
every sort, no matter what the characteristics of our
knowing. Whether we look at physical phenomena or mental
phenomena arising and passing away, they're all
fabrications. Even the mind firmly established in
concentration is a form of fabrication, as are the
stages of jhana.
§ If we don't look
inward, we make the mind dark and murky. Then when
sensory contact comes, the mind can easily get all
stirred up. So I ask that you make an effort to peer
carefully inward to see what's there in the mind, to see
how things arise, to see how mental labels and
fabrications arise. That way you'll be able to disband
them, destroy them, leaving just the mind pure and
simple, with no labels or attachments at all. It will
then be empty of defilement. You might call it your
inner beauty, Miss Emptiness, who doesn't have to age,
doesn't have to grow ill, doesn't have to die -- a
primal nature that doesn't change. This is something you
have to touch right at the mind. It's not the mind
itself, but the mind itself is what makes contact with
it.
§ When we practice we're
like diamond cutters. Our diamond -- the mind -- is
embedded in dense, dark defilements. We have to use
mindfulness and discernment -- or virtue, concentration,
and discernment -- as our cutting tools to make the mind
pure in all its thoughts, words, and deeds. Then we
train the mind to grow still and to contemplate so as to
give rise to clear knowledge all the way to the point
where you meet with what's totally pure and free from
defilements and mental fermentations: our "Miss
Emptiness" who is so extremely beautiful, free from
change, whom the King of Death can't see.
And as
to whether this is something worth aspiring to, I leave
it up to you to decide.
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Luang Dhamma Community 1995
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